康雨日報

生活越久會發現，什麼事是重要，什麼其實是沒有必要看得太重的瑣事，但儘管我們都知道，時間有限，如果可以完全做到自己想做的事，且能夠達到不在乎他人眼光，毫無畏懼的生活，同時又不會耽擱自己或者觸犯到別人，合情合理的過活，必然是一件難能可貴也是個頗值得持續存在在這個世界上的一種生存方式。

‖困‖ 溫康雨

不知不覺，對自己影響深遠的歌手的逝去，已經過了兩年，即便不能再像往常一樣，若有不安或失落的情緒，就即時去聽像是能懂自己歌手的歌，否則就會想到那些遺憾和不捨，而容易有所感傷，但不管時間過多久，曾經陪伴自己渡過無數個溫暖或寒冷晚上的詞曲，相信心中都還是能持續的感到真切和被治癒，不會因為對自己來說很重要的人的消失，就完完全全的忘記當時所有的跟隨和想念。

曾經去濕地看了Chicaca What What所辦的插畫展，《Can't live without music》用了A-Z的排序來讓經典的音樂人物再次重現，並用插畫和平白敘述的方式，來與我們分享其音樂所帶出來的感覺。
其中最觸動我的歌手，就是聯合公園的查斯特，當時看到展覽有自己非常欣賞和喜歡的歌手，心裡真的是有無數顆星星在為其閃耀，也覺得共同的喜歡，因為有被給予尊重和青睞，而感到好欣喜洋溢。
所以很開心聯合公園的Mike Shinoda 今年有來辦演唱會，也很幸運有搶到早鳥票，當時離好近😇

以下為2017/7/20左右寫給聯合公園的信，雖然當事人看不到...自己也僅是為了當時自己的心情而透過寫文字的方式抒發，但還是感到很開心和欣慰世界上有一個曾經對自己來說如此重要的歌手，無論存在或消失，都值得被景仰和紀念。
（英文為朋友Esther 幫我翻的譯...本來要寄信，但好像沉入海裡...所以就想說跟你們分享~也祝福大家心中也會有這樣一個對你來說很特別的人，即便是陌生人，也許都能在旅途上，當自己心裡強大的支柱。）

I really like Linkin Park’s music. Chester is gone, and I haven’t completed practicing all of their songs and understand each member. But I really hope that one day I can still see each member coming up with their own individual unique style. We will continue to be led by you. Being there through moments of happiness, and also sadness.
It must have been difficult for him that he’s always carrying a broken heart. His writing comforted our hearts, but nobody could cure or provide comfort for the trauma that he was going through.
He made me realize that composing is about constantly reflecting on life, about the past, and it makes a person grow. Even if the wounds were written in his compositions, the pain had never really left him. When we have not met people who understand us or found a way to seek solace within, the sense of loss would be just like a time bomb that could explode anytime. When one does not feel the care from people around, it is easy to lose themselves.
Chester has always been a singer that I’ve admired since my school days. Listening to Linkin Park songs always made me feel at peace. Although sometimes the vocals had screaming, but I’ve never thought that it was noise to me, I just hoped that he was maintaining and protecting his voice well by resting, because his voice was what made him special. Besides listening to his voice, I also paid attention to Linkin Park’s music as a whole, I realised that the lyrics he was trying to convey was very deep. We might never fully understand what he was actually going through when he wrote these songs, but we could still relate it in our own lives and reflect.
Chester will still remain in our memories even though he has departed from this world. We will never forget the warmth that Chester had given to us. Although Chester is already in a different world from us, our hearts will still be in the same place.
He is the one and only, that can’t be replaced. I do not know if Linkin Park will still go on after his passing, but I still hope that the grieving won’t last for too long. If the grieving continues, we will be there too, all the way.
Thank you Linkin Park for coming into my life. The respect I have for Chester will never be felt enough through these words. Although we do not know each other personally, I still felt that we are connected and understood through music, which is amazing thing for me. The passing of Chester was so sudden, but the fact that he is my inspiration will never change.